It's been several weeks (months!?) since I posted an update on this latest Ironman journey and the associated fundraising effort on behalf of the Kids With Cancer Society. This has been a long and winding journey to say the least having begun in late 2019? I was slated to compete in Ironman Canada in August 2020 which got blown up by COVID-19, was postponed to August 2021, postponed to September 2021, and now - for me - deferred to August 28, 2022!
COVID and its ever-changing face has played havoc with training - swimming pools open/not opened, gyms available/not available - throughout this entire timeframe. Even in this past year, the Great White North (Half-Ironman) lost the ability to run a swim portion of its event. This has been a constant year of adjustment even as we held out hope to get back to something called normal.
The Hadubiak family has also continued to have some of its own personal challenges since April of this year. At that time, my wife was diagnosed with breast cancer. Ever since then she has been navigating the cancer care system, getting a couple of surgeries, waiting on diagnostic results, experiencing the ups and downs of not knowing what the next steps were, being frustrated with a system that sometimes does not to be very patient or family-focused, and researching the heck out of her diagnosis. One thing that both Heidi and I have commented on repeatedly is, even with her extensive background in nursing and oncology and our shared understanding of our healthcare system, how daunting it has been to work through the last several months of uncertainty and seemingly (to us) unnecessary delays in diagnosis and treatment. We can't begin to imagine how lost and overwhelmed others must be on a similar journey. How the parents of Ronan Smyth must have felt as they went through their own even more significant challenges.
As I write this, Heidi just got her final answers on the state of her cancer on August 18, 2021. This was after weeks of emotional high's and low's, hoping that the final and definitive diagnosis would tell us that chemotherapy was not going to be necessary. Alas, that was not to be the case. Heidi's final diagnostics suggested that there would be significant benefit to undertaking chemotherapy so as to reduce chance of reoccurrence. This was a significant emotional blow as you might imagine. Heidi had hoped not to go through this, had hoped that her life and work would not be disrupted, had hoped that she would not be facing the side effects (e.g., hair loss) of chemotherapy. The first chemotherapy treatment was administered on August 20th.
Once reality had set in, however, Heidi faced this adversity with the same strength that she has faced so many life challenges before and which allowed her to push through three Ironman Canada triathlons in the past. I was able to join her at her first course of chemo, during which she kept working via laptop and cellphone, kept her spirits high, and started evaluating head coverings and wig options. And as with past experiences with surgeries earlier in the year, she came through with flying colors, with no immediate or usual side-effects, followed by some retail therapy!
The days since have been a bit more challenging. Fatigue setting in, aches and pains from the chemotherapy, senses heightened regarding any seemingly unusual bodily sensations and what they might mean, and uncertainly about what to expect and/or plan for in the next several days. Heidi has already experienced the loss of taste which has diminished the joy of chocolate for her. And we expect to see hair loss in the number of days. Planning for the head shave has commenced so stay tuned for that.
So we are a bit on pins and needles right now. We don't know what to expect other than Heidi - and her family - will continue to face these challenges as stoically and optimistically as possible. Our Ironman training and experience suggests that we keep the finish line in front of us, appreciate the challenge, and anticipate that the "ride" will never go as planned.
On my own Ironman journey, therefore, I recommit to getting even healthier, getting down to a goal weight that I have not experienced since high school (nearly 40 years ago??!!), and remaining consistent with my training.
I remain committed to making a difference in the lives of children and families going through this challenging time and diagnosis. Many of them sustained the effort and their spirits despite the odds. I can do no less.